Messed up by bitches.

Hey sweeties. I am here to update my blog (p/s. not because i am bored) & its like 11:45PM now. Actually i intended to turn in at 11:30PM but i have no idea why i am not sleeping yet. Target : Go to bed at 12. If not i will appear with dark eyes circles, no, i mean eyebags. #fml. Normally people got dark eyecircle only, but i got like fugly eyebags. Its so unfair, even conceler can't hide them.

Nowadays are terrible. I find that everything from the past do changed in present & the "changes" are a lot. Last year was more lifely for me, this year is so dreadful, i guess? Let me rephrase, i am happier last year. Why. Reason being is my beloved friends are drifting apart from me, my love is transferring school after March Holiday. I feel like stop typing all these damn sad stuffs, seriously. Arg, i just can't fucking accept that my best friend is leaving me in no time. Y . MUST . LIKE . THIS.  :( I think i had gone mad, just now i was thinking that i will do anything for her to stay. And for no reason i thought of death, i die for her? Fuuuuuu, waitlonglong. But i dontwanna her to leave. If she left, everything would be totally different. It means that she's a very important person to me, don't jealous k. As if. You can fucking imagine if a person who always h2h talk with you, gossip with you, shopping with you, eating with you after school, quarell with you, doing retarded stuffs with you, listen to your stories & sorrows, complaining with,joking with, acting people with, laughing with, angry with,commenting with, happy with left you.  & was very sudden to you. THIS IS UNACCEPTABLE. UNACCEPTABLE, BITCH.

Stop starring at my brows, i know they looks horrible in this picture. & i don't know why it appear to be so thick here. Ok shuddup. K enough of this. Sometimes i think people should not be too overbroad. Joke is alright, but not always, like every sec,min,hours. & not to gone too far, a little tiny word can stab your heart like motherf. Remember this.

"When you commented/insluted a girl, she will remember it forever."

K whateverz. I find this very true. When somebody said you're pretty, you can't remember them or whoever that said it. When it comes to insult, the scar will not leave them forever. and the rest of their lifes. Fuck, its 12:17AM now, gonna rush. Like me, i still can remember who are those commented me badly or even just lightly. & also what they HAD SAID. I am fucking angry right now thinking of what they had said. Brainless creatures who doesn't know how it feels like being commented. -'- I never mentioned i didn't comment people before, listen up. I didn't comment people in their face, or didn't comment to that particular person's friends, even still, by using Facebook, or just social sites mentioning who that person is. Its so fucking hurtful & i don't know why people do that. Its still acceptable of you didn't mention their names in social sites. I start being commented when i am in Primary 5? When i am in primary 6, there's totally fine, nobody commented on me, when it comes to sec1, hi. FULL OF COMMENTS. HORRIBLE. 1st day of school there's already people commented my skirt was long likea nerd, what ugly, what shit also say. Fuck. Pictures i took also kena commented, and for this one, almost gave me a fucking depression. I was afraid to go school, to listen shit. The most jialat one was being commented by a guy, directly. Asshole bastard. Directly, okay if its indirect, i am fine with it becos i don'tknow who are you right, but its directly. When it comes to sec2, there's more. *clapclap*. Commenting my face, what shit also come out. All these i know through friends. So they are saying they're perfect, you know some of them didn't even see their faces in the mirror then already start insulting others. HAAAA. This is totally not shooting anyone, only for those who had* done these, heard of fat people commenting people fat? Ugly people commented people ugly. Hilarious manz. Totally. (y) Or ugly nerd guys finding chiobu while insulting a average looking girl. Omgz. I really seens all those scene. I SEEN. For guys or girls who had ever said i am ugly or whatever, prease look yourself in the mirror. Lastly, who doesn't want to be pretty, you borned to be pretty doesn't mean others do, remember, but people want to. So, you're counted as lucky.

"Your few words can scarred my heart instantly."

Even you're seems like just playing, joking, fooling, but mind your words. Words can kill, hurt. People you joked may be keeping quiet at time, because they're tolerating you, taking in all the nonsense you said. They can cried when there're alone after recalling what you had said, so don't ever hurt someone who are weak and sensitive.When they didn't scold you back, it means that they can't speak out & terribly hurt by you. & when they're told you stop it, even in joking tone or serious tone, please stop, even when they scolded you, it means they had bear you for long. How would i know without experiencing this. Yeah awesome.

Its 12:40AM NOWNOWNOWNOWNOWNOWNOWNOW! OHMAHGOD. I mentioned i am turning in @ 12 right? Shit godness, i was typing & typing non-stop. Nerd shit. Alright shall end here, goodnight. Jiamei, don't leave la. :(

Oh ya, randomly saw this picture just now, suddenly i thought it was NICE. Hahahaha, i look nice here. Okay i am speaking the truth LOL. You realised, people, like us always judged whether the photo is nice by looking at themselves only? If you look nice & your friend looks unglam or they're not sastisfy,you will still say nice. If you look ugly in that photo, you will say it looks horrible. RIGHT? So we're the same. LOL. Pictures of mine rarely look nice lor, whenever i wanna choose DP for Path, Twitter,Facebook, or whatever, it took me a long time scrolling my phone up and down. Roar, kbyebyebyebyebyebyebye! Muax only for my loves.❤

Its a beautiful night.

Hello, i am here to say that EXAMS-STARTING-NEXTWEEK. Feeling stress now, i can't follow every single thing teacher had teached. I am not interested in Hist, SS & Chem. So, those subjects, hi. What i mean was how am i going to study for that if i am not interested in them at all, like seriously? Currently looking for the experts to teach me! Any? *winkwink* I think i wasted too much time daydreaming either in class or at home, #idontcare Oh, i am not in to the school team for this year northzone so i don't need to go down for training often, and so, i can like spend more time revising work yet i wasted them ALL. Hey fuckmyself. Stress like shit, don't even know how to express how am i feeling.

" The beauty of stress . "

Lastly, i hope i can cope well. 加油加油加油! RACHEL THAMBELLINA, YOU CAN DO IT! YAYYYYYYYYYYY! I will start work @ around 8;30 , i won't lie this time HAAAA. Hope you guys fail @ your exams next week, bye! Yea just kidding, goodluck for your exams,but you can't beat my score :B

Valentine? Salentine..

HAPPY VALENTINE DAYYYY SWEETIES.

I hope that everyone get their gifts and importantly, also happy. Here's a emo girl spending her V-day lying on her bed alone LOL. Yup its me, i got sick for like NO REASON. Wtffffffff, i can't express how angry i am now, but still, i accepted it. I actually took a wild guess, 2 weeks before V-day arrives, i was just* thinking how good if i am sick on that day, and so, i don't have to come school, don't have to be #foreveralone, maybe thats the reason.. And yes, god granted this wish of mine. I shouldn't have even thought of it, arg definately, my wrong. LOL

Oh yesssss, i also bought my friends those "belated presents". I FEEL SO STUPID SIAAAAA! Just like a lack maron. LOL Wts. My friend told me that there's a lot work i had to rush on. This made me feels nervous and kinda scared somehow, exams' next week lei sia. Don't know how am i going to survive, omfg. To be frank, i don't know anything about History, SS, Physics, Chem, F&N,MT sia, i gonna chiong study for this freaken week. Busywoman97. Ha, so yep Happy Valentine Day once again, lastlong for those who are attached. Single? No worries, stay happy with your friends, there are always there for you! I hope so, HA! Byeeeee!

When a stone stuck in between your throat.

Hey guys. Its me i am back. LOL hi.  Thesedays were tough for me to go on,but still survived. Sometimes i really don't know how to carry on my life, i feel so useless, helpless at time. To be very frank, homework to me is not, not stress at all, really. Is like somehow you feel lonely, or almost reach that kind of feeling. You're quiet, don't feel like talking much, holding and hanging on listlessly. When you know you're drifting far apart with your very important people, just like you're lost or somehow dead. #randomthoughts

Errr.. i'm in dead meat, i forgot to send my podcast yesterday, wish me luck LOL. Basically, Valentine day is coming soon, my #foreveralone day. I will have no presents, no love, no care. It will be a horrible day. Everyone was like happily awiting for that day, yet i am praying hard that the day won't come. Every couple would be so sweet, friends would be so close. Seems fun to everyone, seems sad to me HAHHAHA! SO i wish everyone a Happy Valentine advance.

 

Choo choo!

Hey loves, its me the qtpie, hai ! Boredom is disturbing me recently so i decided to blog again, oh stupid me even almost forgotten that blog actually exist. Really, its feels like something actually missing around me, yes my poor little blog, no wonder feeling so bloody weird thesedays, reason being: I had not touch my lappy for like approximately 7++ days. Surprising? :D Oh ya Facebook was on a girl named Naomi Neo's trend, for my opinion, she didn't do anything wrong, i am not siding her or whatz just think that some of the people are being alittle* unreasonable LOL. I wonder whats wrong with taking picture of herself, and she's think that particular picture was pretty, lastly she post it on Fb, then she got like 1k-3k of likes. Anything wrong with that, what i know she's not a ripper, he Fb accs are real, its not that she kept on adding people, its that people kept on flooding her friend request & she accepted all just to please them. Sadly the friend list was literally full, thats the reason being she had her 2nd acc, got it? She owned her own blog, can't you see it? Do you think a ripper can got so many photo of herself and posting in her blog with some topic that the people requested in her Formspring? Talk logic thanks. Lastly you may suspect her she photoshop, remember -suspect- . BUT you didn't know whats the real reason being for her photo being so chio, its alright if you doubt she's doing anything to her photos. But even if its real she photoshop, any problem like seriously?! Any rules written HUMAN BEING can't photoshop? Or is it illegal to photoshop, so why is "photoshop" available if its illegal at the first place? Almost every piece of Xiaxue's photos are edited,only she can? Not even just her, other people outside, why not you say them? K fullstop.

I don't know why it seems like as if i am guarding her, then realised i typed so much, for her?! NO ! Alright not for her, for those unreasonable people actually. Just speaking out my opinion, if not the world will turn upside-down one day LOL. Just that photo nice doesn't affect anyone elses right, whats wrong with being pretty, how good if i am. Wtfffff. So *awkward* now. Er next, lets welcome Aaron Tan back!

Its his 2nd hilarious video, he didn't change at all. Still the same commenting people using rough words. Alright, to be frank, the Steven Lim's big fhish thingy video is irritating to me as well, LOL. And, he said a sentence:" Stop commenting on we." Alright, his english..

WHOOOOOP. Lets move on, oh ya, i bought new pairs of lenses! Guess what, its in total black with bigger dimension. I sounds so happy & fulfilled. Damn because its mah first time wearing coloured lens, i know some of you guys thinks that to you its not coloured due to its black. But its the fact that still, black was a colour LOL. And i don't know why am i even talking bout' this. So after buying, i tried them on. Guess what happen, i scare myself off. I look terrible with the humongous lens, when i look myself in the mirror, it reflect an alien. True, but after i had been wearing it for days, iam used to it #bigeyes. I knew that next time when i didnt put on my lens i will look even horrible, but i had to buy the lens, kno why? *secret* ;)

With my dramatic lenses on. I just feel weird on me for the first time. (:

Yep, so thats all about my lens, -the lame section-  .

Oh ya, I hope that CSS netball can win the next match, i am didn't go to watch their match is because of some reasons. Its abit heartbreaking actually. LOL. LOL. LOL. LOL. Oh and the C'Div won Sembawang Sec, YAYYYYY! Shocked and happy for them.. Gogogo!

Oh yeah tml is Caris' birthday, and will be celebrating tml as well @Waterfront. Hope that she will satisfy tml. Heh. (: SO, BYE GUYS. #random post.